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Two exams down, one to go!
Yep, just one exam left, this Friday, till I'm absolutely free! LALALA! I could just SING! Except that I've still got my science exam.. in French 0.o
but after that's over, then I'll SING!
and update ^_^
haha.

-pants.

She clutches a hand to her chest and silently chokes back the tears that threaten to spill over. A short gasp escapes her lips. The pain wracking her lungs and heart is unbearable. Her stomach feels as if there is a large gaping hole in it and her throat is too constricted to speak. She closes her eyes and tries to push away the hopeless feeling brought on by the waves of intense pain.

She attempts to calm herself and steady her short, uneven breaths. Her hands are shaking and clammy, and the dull, crippling pain in her chest does not subdue. She bravely takes a step forwards and hides the fact that her entire body is weakening by the second. Her pace gradually quickens until it looks almost natural. She sees him and the gnawing pain reaches an all-time high.

"Hey," he says. The pain disappears and she smiles widely, naturally, and he smiles back.
She takes in every detail before he continues walking past. She watches his retreating form until he turns the corner.

Once he is out of sight, she collapses, sobs wracking her entire body.

---

I hate what
you can do
to me without
even trying,
but I love it
all the same

---

You're
out of my
league, I'm tripping
on my feet, but I don't
think you see, or you
just don't care.

---

I hate and I
love this love\
hate thing
you've got
me on.

---

I can barely
stand to see you,
it hurts so bad
and makes me
fly.

---

Everything I was thinking when I told you 'Happy Birthday' today. It should explain why I'm a little quieter, more awkward and I always do that shy little smile when I'm around you.
It should also explain why my hand was shaking when I signed a witty message in your yearbook. I mean, you try pouring all your thoughts and feelings into about three lines without giving anything away. Hope you get the message now.

Love,
mia.

Jesus Christ on a stick! Matthew is going down.
My best friend Ami's boyfriend Matt is a gigantic dipshit and she refuses to realize it! All they ever do is fight and make up, which isn't too bad, considering their arguments are generally pointless.
But, this time he totally crossed the line [that stupid son of a...]. He was screwing around with a bunch of other girls, and Ami found out. Honestly, she was so upset. We were sitting at this assembly thing, and he walked in late, she saw him and started crying. Crying for God's sake! Ami doesn't cry!
Then at lunch he's all "Do you wanna talk?" Personally, I think she should've stopped him from reproducing then and there, but she agreed to talk to him. Five minutes later they come back, and he's acting as if nothing happened in the first place! I wanted to slap him SO fucking hard. >____<
Then, since I was going all super-bitchy and talking to everyone, but pretending he didn't exist, Ami got mad at me. Well SOR-RY for not being shit excited to see him back again!
GAHH.
Just kick him in the balls and leave it at that.

...
On the bright side, I bought a Sex Pistols CD...

So, today was crap. Like, it started out fabulously, with a chocolate chip muffin, but just went downhill from there. School was okay, but I kept having dizzy spells and hyperventilating and such. A couple of my friends gave me birthday beats, hah, they're so rad but annoying all the same =D
Well, we got report cards yesterday, and I'm getting a 73 in band, 73 in french, 88 in math, 93 in art and 84 in science. So, my dad phoned up my band and french teachers, then had a good yell at me about how if I didn't get good grades, I wouldn't get a scholarship and go to a good university and I would fail at everything at life. So I came here [my room] and practised my guitar. Apparently this is some sort of crime, since he then yelled at me about not practising my flute enough, and that I was making him waste his money and that guitar isn't gonna get me anywhere in life so I should give up on it since, he says, I'm never gonna get good anyways. Somehow, this is related to grades, so he got on that subject again, and I'm a failure, a disappointment and I "don't care about anything." He also says I have to learn to shut up, or he'll "slap me so hard I'll end up in the hospital." I doubt he would, but that's not a nice thing to say all the same.

Happy Birthday to me.

So, Regina didn't work out.
I'm a little disappointed. I mean, there goes my new beginning. Life, minus brother and dad. It's looking good from where I'm standing. Obviously, Claire, Cait and Ami will be happy. I think Cait understands the most why I would wanna just up-and-leave this stupid hole.
We're still moving and all, but it's gunna be within busing distance to my school, so not that far. Good news is, TCE can still work out if Ami's rents don't decide to kick her out once she hits 16.

Hm, nice title right? ^^
Yes, it is relevant.
No, I was not in a gigantic orgy.

Haha. Today in art class, we had to use crayons, so I went to get a box. Then, I'm all talking to Ami and colouring, and my art teacher comes over and says "You might want to take the wrappers off the crayons.. undress them!" ROFL. it was really funny.
So, Ami grabs a lime green crayon and shoves it in front of my face and screams "It looks like QUINN! Doesn't it?!?!" so we named him Quinn, undressed him [bahaha] and proceeded to name and undress all the other crayons. Some of them broke. It was tragic. It went like this.

Lime green - Quinn Allman
Dark green - "Quinn" [this guy who waits at the bus stop who looks EXACTLY like the real Quinn!]
Light pink - Patrick Stump
Blue - Ami
Green\blue - Matt [Ami's boytoy. haha. juuust kidding. her luuhhverr]
Orange - MIA! hehe. I was orange.
Yellow\orange - Brendon Urie
Red\orange - Jon Walker
White - Spencer Smith
Black - Ryan Ross
Yellow - Bert McCracken
Dark purple - BILLIAM BECKETT! hahaha
Light purple - Frank Iero
Red - formerly Shaant. Then he broke. So it was Hollie. I hate Hollie. Crayon-Hollie is dead. Along with crayon-Pierre Bouvier.
Brown - Steve [this guy at my school who we thought looked like 'a steve' then really was Steve!]


Oh yeah. It was rockin. Then we put them all in a pile and they had a giant orgy. XD

Then I stole Pat, Billiam and Frankie. It was FUN ;D
haha. Crayon orgy.

Moving, moving, moving.
Yep. To Regina, Saskatchewan probably. Or Calgary, Alberta, but that's less likely. I feel like I should be devastated, but.. I'm not. I mean, of course I'll miss my three best friends, but I'm not going to miss much else. Frankly, it'll be a relief to get out of this town. I can't stand it. I don't live close to anywhere. The only three people in my neighborhood who are close to my age are some stupid preppy rich kids who I hate anyways. I love my high school, but I don't honestly care that much if I go to a new one.
But, I'm going to miss my friends like hell. I've been able to put up with switching schools a bunch of times since I always know people. Plus, my best friends are always a 20 minute drive away, and we phone each other all the time. Except, in Regina.. I'll barely be able to see them. Mum says I'll be able to come back and visit here during March Break, Summer and Christmas etc. But, it's not the same.
I watched this video, and seriously, Regina's beautiful. I really wouldn't mind living there. I'll be in an actual neighborhood with people who actually come out of their houses. I'll be able to walk to school for once in my life, meaning I'll be able to hang out with my friends without worrying about catching a bus and such. It's looking pretty up from here.
One thing is, Dad wants to 'get rid of the things we don't need' before moving. Meaning taking basically everything in my room and chucking it out. He also says that in the new house, no posters on the walls. I also may have to share a room with Lish. Oh god. I already live in the same house as her and it's bad enough, but a room with my little sister?! I love her and everything but.. Kill me now. Please.

Well, I know I've already got three active stories on here [heh heh] but, I still write others, that aren't posted for various reasons. So here's a list of my stories, active or not and posted or not, and some info on each.

Phobia
 What are you afraid of?
 Active\9 chapters
 Gerard Way and Autumn Bryant.
 Autumn is an orphan who has been moved from one terrible foster home to the next for far too long. She's anticipating the day she turns 18 and can officially live on her own, when she is adopted by the Ieros and, inevitably, meets the Ways.


Sarcasm is Not a Personality Trait
 Is cynicality? No? Damn.
 Temporary Hiatus\3 chapters
 Melanie [Mel] Riel, Paul Costello and other characters.
 It all starts during summer break. Melanie narrates her story from a cynical, sarcastic and overall comical point of view.


W W B D ?
 What would Brendon do? Let's find out.
 Active\3 chapters
 Ava-Lynne [Ava] Ross, Brendon Urie & Panic!, Jaden [Jay] Ross, Scarlett Josephine [Jo, Josee] Barton, Evan Zachary Farraday
 Ava and Jaden are twins, moving to Las Vegas with their father after their mother's death. He sends them to a Roman Catholic high school, where Ava meets a guy, who knows a guy who changes her life.


Finding Marbles
 Out of my mind? Not so much.
 Unposted
 Sicely Felice Beauchamp and Frank Iero
 Job promotions are a good thing, right? Maybe for Sicely's mom. Sicely is taken from her home in Paris, France and her best friend Nick, to Belleville, NJ. Who the hell lives in Belleville? Apparently some important people. Sicely, her brother Andre and her mother happen to move in across the street from a certain Frank Iero.

Define 'Cool'
 Cool: Whatever you want it to be.
 Unposted
 Liana-Clarisse [Lia, LC, Ana] Whitaker and Mikey Way
 Jock, emo, prep, nerd, pothead, loser all have one thing in common. Labels. Definition and opinion included at the start of every chapter. So, read on, and know what it takes to be 'cool'.


Memories of Music
 Most of your life is in the past.
 Unposted
 Breanna Madison [Bree] Wentz and Patrick Stump & FOB
 Breanna has two passions: photography and music. So, instead of continuing university with something she hates, she drops out. Her mother is beyond disappointed and sends Breanna to live with her brother back in Chicago, in her childhood home. Can she handle the memories?


Oneshots
 Always active, yo. But, I never have any good ideas for oneshots, so they're by request. If you want one for you, just message me with the following:

Your Name:
Main Focus:
Anything you want incorporated in the story:

I'll message you back, probably with a couple extra questions if necessary, as soon as possible.



Alrighty then, that's all for now!

miaPANTS


okay, I lied. One more thing. ^^'
I also make banners if you want one! Yep, okay now that's all.

OMG. My friend Bethany = MY FUCKING HERO!
So, me, Ami and Jess decided WOAH it would be SO cool to be in a band!
So we made one.
And we decided Bethany, since she doesn't play any instruments or anything, can be our manager\graphic designer\anything that involves organization or art.
So she made us a website! OMGOMGOMGOMG!
IT'S SO COOL!
It's not much, but hey, we only started like... 3 days ago.

miaPANTS

That's right, I'm finally getting back to you.
So far, the people who would like to be an editor are:
 - I.Must.Be.Dreaming.
 - ificouldsavemyselfiwould
 - juliabitesback
 - neverendingnights
 - xblackxflag666
 - Moon-Rose

I'm going to be sending out a chapter excerpt with mistakes in it for people to correct and send back as soon as possible.
If you have an email you'd like me to send to, just tell me what it is, and I'll be happy to send it to you there.

If you wish to have your name added to the list, just tell me.

Good luck! And please, pleaaaassse don't just use spell-check. That proves nothing.

Well, I just thought of this on Friday, and never thought to post it.
So, you know the really sweet things people say? The things that make you go 'Awwh!!' or *SQUEE!* Well, I thought I'd dedicate a journal to those sort of things. I'll put one of my own, and I'd LOVE to hear some of yours!

This didn't happen to me, but to my friend Josee, when I was hanging out with her and Ryan, who is currently her boyfriend [Awwwww!].

So we were sitting outside during lunch break at school, and there was this awkward sort of silence. Josee looked over at me, and I shrugged, then she looked over at Ryan, who was looking right back at her. A few seconds later, he was still looking at her. So Josee's all "Are you staring at me?" and Ryan says, "Mhm" and nods really enthusiastically. Then Josee says "Uhm.. why?" and Ryan's like, "Just.. 'cause you're really pretty..." and turned really pink. Then Josee went to say something, but then didn't and turned ever redder than he did.
I really didn't want to ruin the little moment they had going on there, but I couldn't help it, so I was like "AWWW! You guys are BLUSHING!" and then Josee smacked me. But it was SO worth it =DD I love those guys. ahahaha.

Thanks so much to people so far who would like to be editors!
[neverendingnights, I.Must.Be.Dreaming., ificouldsavemyselfiwould, juliabitesback]

So, I've decided that I'll take a chapter of one of my stories that isn't posted yet, and put a bunch of commonly made mistakes in it, and send it out to anybody willing to try. Then, you send it back to me, I'll see how well each person did, and whoever does best is my editor.

This is just an idea, and if somebody thinks of something better, feel free to let me know!

And as a reward and thanks, the two people who do the best can have a character in one of my stories, co-write a story with me [that would be fun!], have a one-shot, or something like that. I'd make people banners, but I'm rubbish at it =D and I don't want to give sucky banners.

Anybody interested, contact me in one way or another. Cbox, message, email or comment on this post.

MIApants U+2665

If you read the title of this post, you shall see that I really [and I mean really] need an editor!
I'm spending so much time that could be used writing, reading and re-reading whatever chapter it is I'd like to post, taking me forever in between updates! Especially since I tend to keep five or six stories going at once [some aren't ready for posting yet].
So if anybody's interested in the slightest, please message me!
If you want something in return for being an editor, please let me know, and I'll be happy to figure something out!
Plus, you'll get to read the stories that aren't posted yet! [mostly because I don't know what to call them.. hehe.]

Yes, that's right!
EXAMS ARE DONE!
And I've got a couple days off, that I shall spend WORKING ON MY STORIES!
WOAH!
So, what's going on with each story:

W W B D ? - Well, I REALLY like this story, and I've been giving it a lot of thought lately, so it should turn out really good. =D I've stopped posting stories as much on 'Zilla, and my stuff is more on Mibba. So go check it! My username there is
woah!99-redballoons

Phobia - I'm not exactly sure where this one's going, but I like the story, so I'm going to keep it up. This story will be updated both here and on Mibba, since I've already got lots of it on here.

S A R C A S M is [[not]] a Personality Trait - I really love the characters of this one, and the style I'm writing it in, but I'm REALLY low on ideas for it! This seems to be the hardest one to write. It is also posted on my Mibba, and will be updated there, and not here on 'Zilla. Don't expect any updates on it soon though.

SHOTS - Hm.. I'm not very good at thinking up ideas for one-shots, but I'm willing to write one for anybody who would like one. Just message me with your name, who you want it to be about, and anything you want to happen in it. If you do message me, expect some messages back with weird questions =D haha

UPCOMING STORIES [oh MY gosh! There's MORE!]

Fred Weasley - Yes, I'm one of those crazed Harry Potter fans. *sigh* Haha. So, because of my undying love for those sexy twins, I'm going to be writing a Fred Weasley story. I'm not sure when I'll start posting it, and I'm not even sure if I'll post it here, on Mibba, or both. But, when I do post it, I'll inform you.

Patrick Stump - That's right! I've got a Pat story in the making! It's already got a few chapters done, but there are a lot of thing's I'd like to change in it. But, that's coming soon, I guess.

Frank Iero - Ahaha, another cliche Frankie story coming. =D I know everybody seems to have one of these, but I just love him so damn much. Again, this one's got a few chapters written that still need perfecting.

Mikey Way - YESH! I love Mikey, and I've got a story for him too! It was posted on my old account [tune][you][out], so if you've read it already, I did NOT copy it. I don't really remember what it was called... so until I think of a name, and edit some of the chapters, it is yet to be posted.

Feel free to message or c-box me at any time.. I'm a very friendly person =D

OHH! I almost forgot!
Would anybody like to be my story editor?!
PRETTY PLEASE?
If you're intrested, drop me a line [ahh I'm so lame!]

Love to mah darlings
MIApants.

My Mibba link is here, if you want it [=

Well, EXAMS are coming.
So I'm being a good little girl [for once] and studying very hard. Yay.
That means I won't be updating for a while D=
My English exams is on the 24th, then Geo is on the 29th
I've got 4 days off, I think.. so I'll come up with some fabulous story ideas!

Speaking of stories; I apologize for not updating in A MILLION years! Same with on Mibba heh. heh... [by the way, I'm woah!99redballoons on Mibba]

I'm still working on Ch. 9 of Phobia.
WWBD is in the process of being written, and shall only be posted on Mibba. But, I've decided to first finish Phobia.
I'm also possibly starting a Fred Weasley story [I'm a dork.. YAH!] that will be only posted on Mibba.
I don't know if Sarcasm... is going anywhere, but I like it, so it's on Hiatus unil I get any creative INPIRATION!

That's all fer now [fer sure]haha
xxoo
MIApants.

Who the hell was the genius who invented 'love\hate relationships'?
Whoever it was; they should crawl into a hole and die.
Paul? I hate how much I like him. And seriously, he doesn't even have to do anything.
Why? Honestly. What the hell?
I NEED ANSWERS!
But where the fuck do you get answers for those questions?
GAH.

Mia x.X

Clicky the link to go to the Petition!
Add a comment saying you'd like to be added to the list if you want! Hopefully this'll work more than just having a bunch of random messages calling the producers douchebags.

xxMIA

Well, I've started moving out. I've decided to stay a Quizillian, but if I don't like the new Quizilla, I'm probably going to make Mibba my first priority. It's a bit confusing right now, but I'm getting it.

You can reach me at <a href="http://member.mibba.com/23432/" target=_"blank">woah!99-redballoons</a>. If you're a Quizillian on Mibba, contact me; we can be cool kids together =P

Well, I'm off to eat Cheerios or something at 2:26 am!

xxMia [the magical moose ROFL]

HAPPY 2008 EVERYONE!
Hope this year brings tons of awesome-ness to all of you!
I'm hoping it'll bring me... LUCK.
Luck's always good.
BUUUUUT...
ANYWAYS!
It's 12:04 am on January 1st... 2008!
That's pretty crazy! Even just to THINK about!
Well, Cheers to an Epic, Enjoyable, and thoroughly SMEXALICIOUS year!

Well, I'm sure many of you have heard talk of the new 'Quizilla Beta,' but I'm really not liking what I've heard so far.
Apparently they will be censoring everybody's creations for cursing etc.
They're still not sure about html\css on your homepages, so you may have to say goodbye to your pretty layouts with music and backgrounds and Cboxes. [NO MORE BRENDON ICONS!! D= Ahh!]
And, they're having a different editor for each creation you make, so no more stories made in the quiz editors. [Gahh!]

If they DO begin censoring and editing what I write, I don't think I'm going to be staying on Quizilla. I've got a Livejournal account that I could post things on, and if that doesn't work, I can always go to Mibba.
I mean, I love Quizilla, but I love the old Quizilla, and I don't think it really needs to be replaced with a 'new and improved' version.

Somebody said, and I completely agree: why don't we just have a 'Quizilla Beta' and 'Quizilla Classic' so that you can choose to stick with the original or use the new one?

xxMia ♪